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I find I am frustrated with this blog. Since it is not anonymous, the amount of self-censorship I feel I need to do is enormous. Even the story I recently told about my dad trying to shut my uncle out of the luncheon with the cousins seemed a little dicey. There's some huge stuff going on involving my family that I can't get into at all. Although it's extremely unlikely that my husband would ever read this blog (he doesn't really like to read, and most of his online activity involves music), I don't feel I can talk about my marriage. Can't talk about sex. Can't really talk much about work; I don't have anything bad to say about this job, but there are some annoying people here and there. Can't get too specific about money. I can only write a fraction of what I (still) have to say about V. And on and on.
Before this, I had a blog on Xanga which was 100% anonymous -- in fact, I think it was closed except to other Xanga members -- and I was able to fly with anything that was on my mind, although I did change the names. I had a small but devoted readership and they left a lot of comments. But I couldn't share it with anyone who knew me.
I don't know what kind of in-between there might be. I do subscribe to the wisdom that you shouldn't post anything that you wouldn't want even one person to read, but maybe I'm being overly careful. I don't believe my entire name appears anywhere in here, but there's enough personal information that at least one person was able to identify me (though to be fair, she did have an inside track: she used to be married to my husband). I don't worry that much about being read and identified by my actual family members, co-workers/bosses, or friends/ex-friends, but I am concerned that people who know them will read something and mention it. I even had this problem to some extent with the anonymous blog, concerning V. -- many actual details about him would have made him immediately recognizable to anyone who knew him or even knew of him, and as I recall, I put him in a different line of work.
I feel less engaged with this blog, maybe because it seems somewhat superficial compared to the old one. It seems to me that my entries are either too dull or too light. Does anyone really want to read about my welfare benefits or my peculiar MST3K and Bollywood obsessions? I hope the various YouTube clips are at least enjoyable.
The best solution I can think of would be a second, anonymous blog, although the idea of writing two blogs seems like a lot to take on. I did email Xanga to retrieve my username and password, since it's been a very long time since I've been there. I'd at least like to reread some of the old blog, and maybe start writing there again (in addition to here), or possibly start a new second blog. I think it would make me feel a little more comfortable with keeping this one focused on entertainment and media. Even though I realize I'm a little embarrassed to be so focused on movies and TV and music, the truth is that I'm a big consumer of those things, and I actually know a pretty fair amount about them.
Before this, I had a blog on Xanga which was 100% anonymous -- in fact, I think it was closed except to other Xanga members -- and I was able to fly with anything that was on my mind, although I did change the names. I had a small but devoted readership and they left a lot of comments. But I couldn't share it with anyone who knew me.
I don't know what kind of in-between there might be. I do subscribe to the wisdom that you shouldn't post anything that you wouldn't want even one person to read, but maybe I'm being overly careful. I don't believe my entire name appears anywhere in here, but there's enough personal information that at least one person was able to identify me (though to be fair, she did have an inside track: she used to be married to my husband). I don't worry that much about being read and identified by my actual family members, co-workers/bosses, or friends/ex-friends, but I am concerned that people who know them will read something and mention it. I even had this problem to some extent with the anonymous blog, concerning V. -- many actual details about him would have made him immediately recognizable to anyone who knew him or even knew of him, and as I recall, I put him in a different line of work.
I feel less engaged with this blog, maybe because it seems somewhat superficial compared to the old one. It seems to me that my entries are either too dull or too light. Does anyone really want to read about my welfare benefits or my peculiar MST3K and Bollywood obsessions? I hope the various YouTube clips are at least enjoyable.
The best solution I can think of would be a second, anonymous blog, although the idea of writing two blogs seems like a lot to take on. I did email Xanga to retrieve my username and password, since it's been a very long time since I've been there. I'd at least like to reread some of the old blog, and maybe start writing there again (in addition to here), or possibly start a new second blog. I think it would make me feel a little more comfortable with keeping this one focused on entertainment and media. Even though I realize I'm a little embarrassed to be so focused on movies and TV and music, the truth is that I'm a big consumer of those things, and I actually know a pretty fair amount about them.
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